40TH DAYS MEMORIES OF MY MAMA (OUR BELOVED MOTHER)

Hello..hello everyone, how is your day today? Hope everyone is doing well, fine and healthy as well. I know it is the last day of the year and it is already December of the month and 1 week more we celebrate "Christmas day" and for the few weeks more we celebrate "Happy New Year". But for me and my big family it was not a great year for us because the tragedy on our beloved mother passed away in this year on October last month. I really don't know what is going on here but now I realize this is how life means. You still can being a life when you are healthy enough but not for meaning of life. I really do not understand in the beginning when my sister said our mom has passed away in that day it was really very much sad and unhappy time and moment for us because she's gone is really very soon for us. I really do not understand why it is happening to us in this situation?? And I got panic about my mom was passed away in that time. Until now, we all going through this sadness moment and feeling unhappy and a little bit angry and bad for this situation and conditions everyday. I know this is not one thing that everyone wants especially us. I know my dad, my all sisters and my husband and me liked feeling unhappy and liked got punched enough more for all of us until today because our mom passed away.  It really makes us cry, angry, mad, unhappy, and sadly for us to realize that our mom is not longer enough in here with us now. For me especially it liked hits on big rock in front of you and you got a lot of punches in your head and body for realize that one of your beloved parents just got passed away. It really not one of news that I want to share and spared with you all. It really was sad very much sad if you all know how much my feelings and my emotions got hurt and sick if you have been in this situation. And now, since my mom passed away in every 2( two weeks) we all go to pilgrimage to the tomb of my mother places. So, we all go to there and we pray for our mother to be happy forever in heaven. That is was now in our situation life. I know this is not exactly one of my wishes for this year on 2020. Because that I know, my mom have a wishes and hope on this year, to see my sister in the wedding altar and got married.  And now, there is no way for that moment for my sisters because she ( mom) gone to fast . It really was so sad and our hearts got pounding to this situation until today especially for our dad. He got cry everyday and everytime he remembered of our mom. I know this is not easy for him and us all to remember about my mother has passed away. And  it really like a "bomb" to our life until today.  We all until today just think about why this is happening to us? Because that I know my mother is always saying that she is healthy and happy. And for the bottom line she is not got"Covid 19" passed away.  Is not that why she passed away. It really hurts a lot for me and my big family to remembering when my mom passed away. Now, we all living a lot of different when she still alive and besides us all. It really lot of different things now for us. Just remember if you parents still alive until today, give them your kiss and your hugs for them, do not wait for a big moment or days. You will never be able get them a lot more if they not around you anymore forever. And if you realize that you loved them so much, give them your time and your care for them do not wait for special occasion and any days, you will regret it for your rest of your life.  I really do not like to writing this post about my mom just passed away but I want to tell you guys for me it very bombarded so much with this situation.  It really was very much bad and sad and not easy.. really..for me and my family to see my mother passed away in this year 2020. So, I just want to tell you guys, that is was a really was alive time if you know that this life is to short enough to making this so much incredible because we all do not know how you will living for how long.  Just realized that this life is very short and anything can happen immediately. And, I just realized that now and making me hurts and sad because of this. But today, I  now my mom got in a beautiful place where she belongs now it was in "heaven". And it really was not in our heads, hearts and minds this situation will be came in our life.  It really was a hardfull and down for me. But, now I know my mom was in heaven and looking to us one by one to ward us from heaven above in our steps in our lives. Because until today, this was 2 months after she passed away and she already gone forever through 40 days ago in 18 October 2020. Because of that, I knew now she was in heaven and looking down to us to see us and she really..really was happy now and every sicknesses that she had was relieved and gone forever. So, I now how life was impacted for me to see and through this all process of life. And when that 40 days ago was come, all we go to pilgrimage to tomb for our mother and I picked a picture with my one set outfit in that day and it was very much nice and good because it really was baggy much for me and makes me feel more comfortable and cozy with wearing this outfit. So, this outfit when I go to my mom graves. I wearing my one set black tie dye baggy outfit with my green flip flop jelly shoes and my mom handbag with my mom eye glasses. It was she's heritage for me. So, I put in to a simple catchy outfit but with more details on.  And with my hair I put in pinned hair on that day.  So, in that day I wearing my outfit more much often a simple and catchy look. Especially, soon it will be Christmas day and New Year comes, for me and my family it really was devastating to celebrate this year season liked this it really not makes us happy and feeling sad and miserable with our mom passed away. Just keep in your mind to still loved each other do not waisting your time to wait special occasion or days even moments and do not be shy to tell them they you love them so much. So guys, this is my review for my blog today.. Hope you all liked and enjoy my blog... Please stop by and give your review for my blog today... Thanks...